Today, I Am Not For You

Dust of the day
Light sometimes
Thick
Always clingy, magnetic, sure
Campaigning the status quo
Slow to retire, quick to spread
A swipe, a wipe
Smearing fragments till all is speckled
Cristened
With the mess of the day.

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